When did you know you wanted to be an artist?
This is an easy and yet difficult question to answer. As I believe it is for all creatives. We often struggle even calling ourselves “artist” let alone deciding we want to be one.
I have been an “artist” all my life. I loved coloring and drawing as a young child. I didn’t really think about it, I just liked it. Of course, the more I drew the better I became and the more praise and attention I received from teachers and peers.
The thing is, I don’t know if I really understood what “art” and “artist” really stood for. I just really enjoyed it and it was fun for me. I would often try to get friends and family to draw with me. Sometimes they would, but a lot of times they just had no interest in it.
When I was a teenager, I knew instantly I wanted to sign-up for art when going from junior high to high school. So I did. Then I continued to, as it made me happy and I seemed to be ok at it.
I think high school was the first time I was ever more competitive about it. I would stay up late into the morning hours just to finish something. I was in love with it. I remember choosing to focus on it and not date or get caught up in the drama surrounding the whole boyfriend-girlfriend scenario. It often left me lonely. My closest friends, weren’t artists.
I ended up getting a scholarship to go to a local college to study art. So I decided that was what I wanted to do. I chose graphic design and the rest was history.
I have been a graphic designer my entire career, but have never ceased in being an artist as well. I have always been both during college and after. Now 17 years into my career, I still enjoy both equally.
It’s a relationship that will never end. I can’t tell you how it truly enriches my soul and my entire existence. The thought of “giving it up” would feel like death. I may sound a little dramatic here, but seriously…it gives so much meaning to who I am and my life I can’t imagine being alive without it. I don’t remember a time that I didn’t draw.
One of my great soap boxes is that I believe everyone can draw, but I also believe only some will love it so much that they never stop. Those are my people.
Many start, but few stick with it and most don’t even see the point. There is a line where you crossover from I enjoy art into a realm of…this is my purpose and I would do it forever without a penny to show for it. That’s the place I am at.
I’m so thankful to those who know that about me and support me through it. So often folks who don’t know it will suggest (out of kindness) that I give it up, focus on other more important things, or grow up. It’s never been about growing up or out of a phase for me. And I don’t say this out of any pride or haughtiness…It’s part of me and that’s never going to happen. I love it too damn much.
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